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Field Notes for the Wilderness: Practices for an Evolving Faith Hardcover – February 20, 2024
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“This is the perfect guide for all those of who need to be reintroduced to a faith full of grace, mercy, and love.”—Kate Bowler, author of Good Enough
It’s hard to leave a faith that has raised us. Maybe it’s even harder to stay. But what can feel impossible is living in the tension. Living with a faith that evolves.
Sarah Bessey is an expert at faithfully stumbling forward. As a New York Times bestselling author and co-founder of Evolving Faith,the foremost community for progressive Christians, she has been trusted by thousands of people to pursue a reconstruction of faith centered on compassion, truth, and inclusion. Bessey has found a deeply underserved and underestimated remnant in the wilderness of Christianity who are still devoted to Jesus, deeply rooted in the Gospel, fascinated with Scripture, and committed to reimagining their faith.
Field Notes for the Wilderness guides us through multiple principles to live by for an evolving faith, including
• practicing wonder and curiosity as spiritual disciplines
• mothering ourselves with compassion and empathy
• making space for lament and righteous rage
• finding good spiritual teachers
• discovering what we are for in this life, and moving in that direction
In this groundbreaking and nurturing book, Bessey becomes a shepherd for our curiosity, giving us a table for our questions, tools to cultivate what we crave, and a blessing for what was—even as we leave it behind.
- Print length256 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherConvergent Books
- Publication dateFebruary 20, 2024
- Dimensions5.95 x 0.87 x 8.55 inches
- ISBN-100593593677
- ISBN-13978-0593593677
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“Sarah Bessey shines. A book full of gentle wisdom and stunning empathy for all those of us who are bruised by the faithful but want to keep our faith. Faithful without being pious. Useful without being bossy. This is the perfect guide for all those of who need to be reintroduced to a faith full of grace, mercy, and love.”—Kate Bowler, New York Times bestselling author of Good Enough
“In a time when so many of us feel like we are spiritual wanderers, Sarah Bessey reaches out a hand and offers wise and careful company on the journey. Through the tenderness and intimacy of letters, this book shows us the many ways we might survive together in the liminal.”—Cole Arthur Riley, New York Times bestselling author of This Here Flesh and creator of Black Liturgies
“If you forced me to pick one book in the whole world to walk someone gently through their faith evolution—one writer, one thinker, one human being out of all the marvelous leaders who’ve done this hard and holy work—it would be Sarah Bessey’s Field Notes for the Wilderness. A gorgeous, expansive offering from beginning to end; a love song to God and every searching heart.”—Jen Hatmaker, New York Times bestselling author of For the Love and Of Mess and Moxie and host of the For the Love podcast
“In a space where nothing can make sense, Bessey offers guidance and direction that feels like a true hug and high-five from God. And by offering it, the wilderness does not feel so wild and lonely after all. For the moments when I wanted to give life the side-eye, I needed this book. I am so grateful we all have it now.”—Candice Marie Benbow, author of Red Lip Theology
“Bessey encourages readers to cultivate hope, grapple with grief, and repent for mistakes made in the name of faith. . . . Readers will draw strength from these openhearted musings.”—Publishers Weekly
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Welcome to the Wilderness
Dear Wanderer,
Welcome, welcome, my friend. Here you are, at the beginning. Isn’t that a sacred place to be?
There are a lot of reasons why folks like us find ourselves in the wilderness. And right now, it’s even feeling a bit crowded. We are in the midst of a shift in the Church that has resulted in many of us here, outside the city gates, exhausted and scared, sad and angry, and yet just a little relieved.
You don’t have to have it all figured out right now. You aren’t required to have all of the answers you seek when you aren’t even quite certain of your own questions just yet. You certainly don’t need to know where you will end up by the end of this experience. But being willing to begin takes great courage, especially when your heart is a bit battered and broken, when your story hasn’t worked out the way you thought it would.
I’ve loved the metaphor of the wilderness for many years now. It just seems to fit with what I understand of the world and my place in it. If the city is a metaphor for certainty and belonging, then the wilderness is for our questions and our truth.
You wouldn’t have picked up this book if you didn’t understand the wilderness in some way. If you hadn’t found yourself out here, beyond the city gates, on your own or with a ragtag little company of makeshift companions.
The wilderness can be a strange, disorienting, lonely place for a soul, I know. It can be filled with danger and loss. But along the way, we do find each other. We come across little clearings, like this, where we can spread our quilt for a while, sit around the fire together, and share some time, maybe a thermos or two of tea.
I’m glad you’re here by my quilt and campfire. You’re so welcome here.
I don’t know what propelled you to embark on this journey. Some of us, like myself, very consciously found ourselves leaving the city and entering the wilderness because of our questions, our doubts, our but-what-about questions.* Others of us were never welcome in the city to begin with; the wilderness has been your primary address for as long as you can remember. You have much to teach us. However we found ourselves here, look up, look up, you can see the stars out here in a way you never could inside the city gates. You’re not as alone as you feel.
* It’s worth noting that I am writing to you as someone who was made for that city of certainty and belonging. I mean, I’m a nice white lady who is married with kids. The “city” usually loves women like me. So when I left the city gates, it was on purpose and it was a choice in some ways. But for many of us, we never belonged in the city—maybe it’s because of our sexuality or gender identity, maybe it’s because we are not neurotypical, maybe because of how we were raised or how we look or our body, or how we move through the world. The city tends to value conformity, and for people like me, that’s an actual possibility until it isn’t. But for a lot of us, conformity isn’t even possible and so the city was never our home, which is important to name.
This book is my own hopeful offering of what has served me in the wilderness, the practices and postures I have found to be good companions when danger feels close and losses have accumulated and loneliness a constant. The tools you actually need or eventually use might be different—because you’re gloriously, wonderfully different from me. That’s one of the reasons why I tend to steer clear of prescriptive advice and how-to manuals or instructions: you will discern what will serve you and what you can release without my interference. What I’m offering are the knowings I arrived at the hard way, through mistakes and missteps and outright failures. These are the practices I still embrace in my daily life, the things I wish I had known when my back felt the final close of the city gate behind me with nothing but wilderness ahead. I hope to simply be alongside you as a companion for this time.
Some of the practices might meet you right where you are. Others you’ll remember in a few years when you need them. A few might not work for your own journey, and that’s okay.
In a lot of ways, I may be writing the book I wish I would have had twenty years ago. Back then, I was in the early stages of what folks would now call “deconstruction,” but back then? I had no such language. It was just after 9/11 and I was a young pastor’s wife, a fish-out-of-water Canadian in south Texas, and everything I thought I knew about God was disappearing like campaign promises. In the years since then, I’ve spent a lot of time out here in the wilderness. This big sky and wide-open space have become a second home to me, even when I feel alone. It’s here I discovered that the wilderness isn’t a problem to be solved, it is another altar of intimacy with God. I never would have imagined that would be true all those years ago.
Water in the Literal Desert?
About twenty years ago, my husband and I were driving through Arizona, not quite halfway between our old life in Texas and our new life back home in Canada, towing a seen-better-days U-Haul stuffed with our worldly goods.*
* Note: “worldly goods” in our case meant particleboard furniture and secondhand books.
The August heat was radiating off the road, but we kept the windows open because our air conditioner was never able to keep up with the American Southwest. Hot air thundered into our Chevy, whipping my hair out of its ponytail; my legs were stuck to the seat. It felt like I had been hot for years, and maybe that was true. This Canadian gal had never managed to acclimate to the temperature properly. The years we spent in south Texas had been a bittersweet roller coaster with beauty and sorrow, devastation and joy. The one constant was my inability to handle the heat well.
Brian had just resigned from pastoral ministry, and we were limping home to Canada to reimagine our future, more than a little brokenhearted and burned out. Once idealistic, I had become cynical about fog machines and voter guides. Brian may have been the one to leave his Jesus-y job behind, but I was the one losing my faith altogether. We were still grieving our latest miscarriage and questioning many of our experiences in full-time vocational ministry and the ways we were taught—or expected—to be in the world. Everything I knew about God had become a gigantic question mark, and everything I thought about Christians had become a howl of betrayal and frustration.
The sky was blue, the horizon endless, our pain immense. We talked (okay, fine, I ranted) all the way across the red desert. My soul was as parched for water as the landscape around us.
God had once felt as near as my breath; now there was only space, space, space.
When we stopped for gas and lunch, I opened the car door and stepped onto the shimmering pavement, a river of perspiration snaking down my spine. “Ugh, I’m so sick of being hot!” I complained, tipping my head back in exhaustion.
“Have you ever considered that you’re not having a spiritual crisis, and perhaps you’ve just been overheated? For many, many years?” asked my husband mildly, taking his life in his hands. I threw an empty water bottle at him and he laughed.
As Brian pumped gas, I bought water and hopefully-only-a-day-old sandwiches from the gas station store. He parked to the side of the station and then we followed crumbling signs pointing to a picnic table in a clump of scrubby trees along a ditch. We continued our conversation from the car.
“I feel like I’m wandering in a desert,” I said, gesturing at the landscape around us. “I’m not who I used to be, but I’m not sure where I’m going next either. There isn’t much out here but a lot of space. It’s scary. Like who I was has disappeared. Like God has disappeared.”
“That’s fine.” Brian was unbothered. “I figure God meets us in those places of space more than when we are pretending to have it all figured out or cram our souls full of our own opinions and certainties. I’m not worried.”
But I was.
My fears weren’t unfounded. I knew how it went. The system we were a part of operated best when we all knew our lines and followed the cues. If someone stepped out of line, the response was swift and often merciless: if you weren’t “in,” you were very, very out. And if you were on the outs, well, you didn’t just lose your church, you lost your friends, your community, and in our case, even our source of income. The margin for error felt small because it was.
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- Publisher : Convergent Books (February 20, 2024)
- Language : English
- Hardcover : 256 pages
- ISBN-10 : 0593593677
- ISBN-13 : 978-0593593677
- Item Weight : 2.31 pounds
- Dimensions : 5.95 x 0.87 x 8.55 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #35,892 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
- #234 in Mental & Spiritual Healing
- #271 in Spiritual Self-Help (Books)
- #491 in Christian Self Help
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SARAH BESSEY is the editor of the New York Times, Globe and Mail, and Publisher's Weekly bestselling book, "A Rhythm of Prayer." She is also the author of three popular and critically acclaimed books: "Miracles and Other Reasonable Things;" "Out of Sorts: Making Peace with an Evolving Faith;" and "Jesus Feminist." Sarah leads Evolving Faith, a conference and community for wanderers and wonderers. She lives in Calgary, Alberta with her husband and their four children. You can find her online at sarahbessey.com.
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- Reviewed in the United States on March 29, 2024I admit that I have been putting off writing this review because I knew I would never be able to express how much this book means to me. It is essential reading for anyone who has ever felt lost in the faith world. If you need a guide through the scary questions and grief and "what now" of changes to your beliefs, this book is for you. Sarah Bessey is the queen of gentle, wise, kind paths forward through the hard, lonely, liberating, complicated spiritual wilderness. It was hard not to highlight the entire book because it was so full of truth and things I want to always remember. You are not alone in this. There are no quick fixes and easy answers, but you're not the only one, and you are welcome to pull up a seat at this table full of outcasts and wanderers. We are so blessed to have Sarah, leading from love, empathy, nuance, and generosity. Leave behind the heavy yokes, whether from the traditional religious institutions or deconstruction influencer culture. If you're ready for more than outrage bait and fear and hot takes, this is for you. If you want to know you're not crazy and there is more to life and faith than conformity and obedience to the morality tests, read this. Join us on this messy journey to a bigger and better and more sustainable way to live.
I admit that I have been putting off writing this review because I knew I would never be able to express how much this book means to me. It is essential reading for anyone who has ever felt lost in the faith world. If you need a guide through the scary questions and grief and "what now" of changes to your beliefs, this book is for you. Sarah Bessey is the queen of gentle, wise, kind paths forward through the hard, lonely, liberating, complicated spiritual wilderness. It was hard not to highlight the entire book because it was so full of truth and things I want to always remember. You are not alone in this. There are no quick fixes and easy answers, but you're not the only one, and you are welcome to pull up a seat at this table full of outcasts and wanderers. We are so blessed to have Sarah, leading from love, empathy, nuance, and generosity. Leave behind the heavy yokes, whether from the traditional religious institutions or deconstruction influencer culture. If you're ready for more than outrage bait and fear and hot takes, this is for you. If you want to know you're not crazy and there is more to life and faith than conformity and obedience to the morality tests, read this. Join us on this messy journey to a bigger and better and more sustainable way to live.
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- Reviewed in the United States on February 9, 2025Sarah Bessey has done it again. Field Notes for the Wilderness isn’t just a book—it’s a companion for the weary, those navigating the dark and sacred unknown. With her signature blend of strength and tenderness, Bessey extends a hand to those who have found themselves untethered from the faith they once knew.
This book is not about answers—it’s about permission. Permission to wrestle, unravel, and believe in ways you never thought possible. It’s about learning to trust yourself, to let go of what no longer serves you, and to embrace a faith that is fluid, evolving, and alive. Bessey writes with the wisdom of a trusted guide and the warmth of a lifelong friend. She weaves stories, liturgies, and practices into something that feels less like an invitation—to breathe, to grieve, to rebuild, to rest. And yes, even to hope again.
For those who have left behind the certainty of evangelicalism and are wandering through the wilderness of faith, this is your guidebook. Barbara Brown Taylor’s words on the back cover say it best: she has had many fathers in the faith, but no mothers—until now. Bessey embodies that nurturing, mothering heart of God, and you feel it on every page.
This is not a book to rush through. It’s a book to sit with, to return to, and carry with you like a well-worn map. If you are searching for faith beyond the rigid boundaries of what you were taught—if you need to know you’re not alone—this book is for you.
Simply put, Field Notes for the Wilderness is holy ground.
- Reviewed in the United States on February 20, 2025This is the book I wish I had 10 years ago when I began the journey of refining and relearning my faith. My copy is full of highlights, and I have already gifted a copy to a friend. This is a book to read slowly and savor. It is full of kindness and wisdom. It is one that I will come back to again and again. Go ahead and gift yourself a copy. You won't be disappointed.
- Reviewed in the United States on May 8, 2024I haven’t read this yet but it sounds good. I like to see the table of contents before I get a book so I’m adding that here if it helps anyone.
I haven’t read this yet but it sounds good. I like to see the table of contents before I get a book so I’m adding that here if it helps anyone.
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- Reviewed in the United States on April 4, 2025I love the concept of an evolving faith. This is true to my experience. Sarah shares her own deconstruction / evolving faith journey with deep honestly and relatability. The wisdom she draws on is instinctive and her instincts are good. Lean into God’s love for yourself and others. Give yourself a chance to grieve. Repent and practice the sacraments you appreciate. Listen to good teachers. Peace making is not simply keeping the peace.
This book is really for those who continue to have a faith in Jesus and haven’t fully deconverted. There is room to question who Jesus is to us now, but Sarah has certainly not thrown Jesus out with deconstruction. This books affirms deconstructing “isms” like racism, sexism, heterosexism, ableism etc. It is important to find places to be active in our faith and not just to spout what we are against, but also what we stand for now. This book affirms that some of us desire to find new church homes and other communities, even forming new ones ourselves.
Sarah talks about journeying and exploring and taking time. Deconstruction is not a quick fix. Evolution is gradual. Be gentle and nurture yourself. Give yourself permission to be happy and free, to move on, and let go of beliefs and relationships that no longer serve your purpose in the world. Forgive, repent, confess, and follow the path to truth as best you can.
This is a deeply spiritual guidebook with a solid focus on God being loving, gracious and compassionate. I wish I’d had this book years ago, but I’m grateful it exists now for people who are just starting out in a more malleable faith.
- Reviewed in the United States on February 20, 2024Sarah Bessey’s books are so good I can recommend before reading. But I HAVE read this one, and yes, I highly recommend it. Bessey’s writing is gorgeous and true. She writes with such care for her readers, and at the same time, leads and challenges us toward transformation. Field Notes is aimed at those whose faith is evolving. She speaks from her heart and her experience and her love for Jesus. I’ll leave you with a bit of her benediction.
“And always, still, Jesus. God with us. I like being with You, out here, under the stars, where we can breathe a little in the companionable silence. You’re even better than I could have imagined. It turned out, You were good news all along, trustworthy One.” Sarah Bessey
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Steph MendezReviewed in Mexico on March 5, 2025
1.0 out of 5 stars No llega reembolso, llego manchado
Llegó manchado de algún tipo de aceite. Hice devolución hace 3 meses y no he obtenido reembolso.
- Rachel JobesReviewed in the United Kingdom on August 29, 2024
5.0 out of 5 stars Great book, practical and delivered with grace and gentleness
Great book - sick of hearing about deconstruction from those leaving the faith. This is well explored and clearly comes from a journey. I like that Sarah doesn’t assume readers experience or thoughts but the gentle way she expands experiences embraces and includes all.
Helpful, practical and thought provoking read. I have had to take some parts slowly and I’ve highlighted and went back to many to journal.
For those exploring, evolving, deconstructing in anyway or just trying to understand the people in your world this is happening to I definitely recommend
- Kindle CustomerReviewed in Canada on March 7, 2025
5.0 out of 5 stars Loving it so far
Started reading this today and love, love, love it. Sarah Bessey has a beautiful way with words and makes you feel like you are drinking a cool glass of water in a hot desert.
- Anna KettleReviewed in the United Kingdom on July 20, 2024
5.0 out of 5 stars Loved this book
Inspiring. So tired of deconstruction books which pull apart faith without any solutions - this is the opposite. A manual to evolving your faith practices without throwing it away
- Morris VincentReviewed in Canada on August 3, 2024
5.0 out of 5 stars Wonderful, inspiring, engaging, and so much more
A beautiful ‘wilderness’ journey. It was engaging from the beginning. I particularly enjoyed the final benediction. Powerful reminder that God is in ALL.